tonight...
when i look up for the sky,
I find many dots,
small...
and
white...
through the rain
this night
i start counting it
one... by one...
but...
the dots i counted is never end
as far as i count...
as much as they appear...
till the swift rain falls...
than...
i can't patch them enough...
and...
the one thing i can do is....
remembering all i have seen...
and all i have counted...
in my aloneness...
i can still see a big dot...
that shine brightly...
a light...
that touch me...
softly...
it can be seen by eyes....
but...
having no idea if...
i can reach it too...
all...
were looked beautiful...
till...
a small cloud come.
and coat the big dot...
i wait...
and wait...
till the cloud go away,
so i can see it again...
but the swift rain haven't stopped.
second... by second... has been passed away...
through the cloud shift... and shift...
then, the dot appears again...
one second....
two seconds....
three...
four...
and...
five seconds...
a big cloud come.
and coat it again...
and... again...
till...
this second....
with no light....
with no one....
with the rain...
in my heart....
just wishing...
the sky will be clear again...
so i can see the big dot over the others...
so i can see the light....
so i have one....
that make me be comfort...
but...
till when... i don't know...
till the teen become "ty"
i wanna fly to a high place...
to the sky....
to the one coated by cloud....
to the.... big dot....
and... reach it....
but my wings is too small....
and not strong enough to make it all...
even to stop the rain in this night...
i just wish...
that the hands from heaven will come...
and take the dot for me...
so...
i can reach it...
or... may the hands bring me to the dot...
so i can fill my heart with its light....
This night,
I saw a moon...
The beautiful one,
that shines brightly in the night...
the one...
attached on the sky...
the dark sky...
that color, coated that night...
I was thinking...
and thinking...
can I be one...
like the moon...
that shines brightly...
in the night...
in the dark side...
in the pain...
in the suffer...
where all cries heard...
can I brighten the night...
can I bring the light...
the light of hope...
the light of happiness...
the light...
that makes others be comfort...
to be beside me...
can I be the moon...
that faithfully attached on the sky...
and shines brightly...
to make 'the one'...
smiling at me...
can I be the moon...
that always come in the night...
in the suffer...
to beat the dark on the sky...
to beat the color...
the color that brings a pain...
with the light of mine...
just to make sure...
'IT' is safe forever...
long... long... time ago
when a star came into an empty space
from a far... far... distance away
bringing its own glory
with some glamour mixed in it
and when some morsels came turning around it
crashed each other into a small... small... particles
that even be invisible to the eye
in its aloneness with debrises
streaming...
and touching it...
softly....
some nebulous glow brightly
from a far.. far... away...
brought clarity for the star...
one......
came to give an eternal light to a quiet core...
till one day.....
the orbit was disappear...
and brought it into the deep ruins...
where the cries and screaming... heard...
then the next well comes...
and luckily found its orbit....
turning around the divine star...
till....
someday...
we don't know....
turning around beautifully...
as sun and earth go their way....
like won't be slipped out,
it turns faster.... and... faster....
broke a time chronicle
that shine brightly....
when.....
the last well come....
then.... having no orbit to inhabited...
looking envious from its place...
therefore...
the last well be extinct...
with the wound and damage...
starting its own blankness... in its core...
then.....
the other particles flow away...
like no one see the blindness... happened around it...
no one....
no one will awake....
till the star blow its own out...
no one....
no one will know....
when it goes on the orbit....
perpisahan....
suatu kata yang sulit untuk dijelaskan....
hai kawan.....
pernahkah engkau berpikir....
pernahkah engkau merenung....
ketika perpisahan datang menghampiri...
entah mengapa setiap perjumpaan selalu ditutup dengan perpisahan....
entah mengapa kita selalu takut ketika perpisahan itu datang......
pernahkah engkau membayangkan...
ketika satu per satu orang di sekelilingmu mulai berpisah darimu.....
atau malah engkau yang pergi berpisah dari mereka......
hai kawan... pernahkah engkau membayangkan orang-orang yang telah berpisah darimu....
entah kawan....
entah keluarga.....
entah sahabat..... dan orang2 yang bahkan engkau anggap tidak penting dalam hidupmu......
mungkinkah semua itu akan kembali lagi padamu......
mungkinkah saat2 engkau dan mereka bersama akan terulang lagi.......
setiap detik dan detak2 jarum jam yang telah kau lewati.....
setiap musim dan lembaran baru yang engkau buka......
selalu menympan suatu memori yang mungkin akan menjadi kenangan terindah bagimu suatu hari nanti....
hai kawan....
pernahkah engkau mengenang kembali masa2 itu... masa2 di mana engkau berkumpul bersama mereka....
hari2 yang telah engkau lewati bersama2 dengan mereka....
meski hanya beberapa hari........
meski hanya mengenal wajah......
entah mengapa.....
hari2 itu....
masa2 itu.....
hanya terlintas sebagai mimpi yang telah kita lewati.....
hanya sebagai mimpi indah yang tidak akan pernah kembali lagi.....
ketika masa itu......
mungkin engkau tak akan pernah mengira bahwa.....
detik itu akan menjadi sebuah bagian dari memori otakmu.....
mungkin engkau tidak akan pernah menyadari...
bahwa perpisahan itu akan datang menghampiri.......
........
detik2 terus berlalu.......
dan tanpa kau sadari...
engkau telah berada di hari ini.....
dengan beberapa orang yang setia berada di sisimu....
hai kawan.....
pernahkah engkau membayangkan.....
bahwa perpisahan itu akan datang kembali.....
tidakkah rasa takut itu akan kembali datang menghampiri.....
ketika engkau membayangkannya.....
cobalah lihat disekelilingmu.....
kawan, sahabat, keluarga mu......
kenanglah hari dan detik ini.....
simpanlah itu di dalam memori mu....
agar jangan sampai kenagan ini hilang daripadamu....
agar jangan sampai engkau menyesal ketika perpisahan itu datang menghampiri....
tengoklah kanan dan kirimu.....
jangan sampai ada bagian yang hilang dari detik ini...
manfaatkan lah masa ini semaksimal mungkin....
agar kelak engkau tidak menyesal......
dengan berbagai kenangan di memori mu....
mungkin sekarang engkau belum merasakan pedihnya perpisahan...
namun, ketika masa ini menjadi kenangan.....
dan mejadi mimpi indah yang telah engkau lewati....
dan ketika engkau ingin kembali lagi ke masa ini.....
segalanya sudah terlambat......
masa ini tak akan pernah kembali lagi padamu.....
orang yang berpisah darimu tak akan pernah kembali lagi.....
mungkin akan........
tapi... sampai kapan engkau akan menunggu......
hingga nanti saatnya engkau akan bertemu lagi....
......
tapi... kapan..........
perpisahan seperti akhir dari sebuah mimpi....
mimpi panjang yang pernah engkau alami......
yang pernah engkau jalani....
entah menyenangkan.....
entah menyakitkan.....
mungkin kah mimpi itu akan terulang.....
sampai kapan.....
kita harus menunggu........
jika memang harus berpisah....
mengapa kita saling dipertemukan......
jika memang itu mimpi....
mengapa kita harus mengalaminya......
hingga kapankah rahasia ini akan terungkap......
hingga masa..........
ini menjadi memori..........
